20/12/06

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// prayer for ::


Was worrying about A&B the entire night. Couldn't sleep well.

Someone had dreamt of me last night, and he sms-ed me a verse that he thought would help me. Its harsh but also comforting.

9You hoped for rich harvest, but they were poor. And when you brought your harvest home, I blew it away. Why? Because my house lies in ruins, says the Lord of Heaven's Armies, while all of you are busy building your own fine houses. 10It's because of you that the heavens withhold the dew and the earth produces no crops. --Haggai 1:9-10

And another one, from 2 Corinthians 6:3-10, but its too long to type out. I liked 2 Corinthians 6:10b, which says "We own nothing, and yet we have everything."

At first I didn't have a clue on what Haggai was trying to say, then I prayed for understanding. I read and re-read it, and I understood. I havent started building God's house.

But actually to tell the truth, I have been awfully confused about the Bible and the sermons and everything. Some teachings are totally contradicting that I dont know what to believe and follow.

Stress is catching up to me. Feel like quitting my job last night because it feels like I'm getting nowhere even though I work so hard as many days as possible. But...11 more days to go to the end of Dec. I still got a few more chances to redeem myself. *yare yare God give me strength*